A Place to Bury Strangers —- Worship (2012)
You see I am an adamant lover of noise rock. Truth is not a lot of people appreciate its raw power. Most people dismiss it as just loud pandemonium. And they could be right because good noise rock bands are hard to come by. I loved APTBS’s debut back in ‘07. It was harsh and I liked it. However, IMO their follow up failed to deliver and fell a little flat. After that I just stopped listening to them and they quickly dissapered into oblivion in my iTunes rotation.
Worship is their latest effort and after finding a link for a download I decided to give them a shot again and holy shit they just blew my mind once again. Worship is extremely well crafted. You see people think Noise is just ‘noise’ but there is a formula to it. APTBS have really crafted it and are on their way of mastering Noise. Worship is very reminisccient of The Jesus and Mary Chain, and while TJAMC is not noise rock they are noise pop. APTBS have accomplished a perfect blend of early noise pop with contemporary noise rock.
If you are enjoy noise rock check out Worship. You won’t be disappointed.
Nothing will ever compare to this
I just wanted to reach out to all of you and explain some of the things that I have been faced with recently.
It’s so funny how many stories are put out there about people. It’s like we all want our side of the story out there as well, but at the end of the day only a few people care to hear what is really going on since the bad is always so much more interesting than the truth. I don’t know why, but this is so weird to me. I used to be angry at the tabloids for printing horrible things about me, but now I try to just be numb to what I see. I saw Tyra Banks once get really upset and cry on her show because they made her look fat. We all want a certain image of ourselves out there, and at some point we all do really care what other people think or we wouldn’t be here.
Recently, I was sent to a very humbling place called rehab. I truly hit rock bottom. Till this day I don’t think that it was alcohol or depression. I was like a bad kid running around with ADD. I had a manager from a long time ago come in and try to direct me and my life after I got my divorce. I was so overwhelmed I think that I was in a little shock too. I didn’t know who to go to. I realized how much energy and love I had put into my past relationship when it was gone because I genuinely did not know what to do with myself, and it made me so sad. I confess, I was so lost.
This letter is to not place blame on anyone, although I do see the world with a completely different set of eyes now. Being in that vulnerable state and taken to dinners and parties with friends and finding out later you paid for everything was a huge learning lesson for me. I think the whole problem was letting too many people into my life. You never know another persons intentions or what another person wants. I feel I was too open and looking for answers when I had it all to begin with. I have had to cut so many people out of my life. It is so sad, because if anyone is a family person…it is me. When I was little I remember every night watching movies with my family and feeling so at peace. Dancing and singing all the time just like a little girl should. Now recently I find with my children that I want them to have that feeling all of the time. I am having to face a lot of things right now since I have children of my own. A lot of insecurities from when I was little are coming up again. It is like we are never good enough.
I know everyone thinks that I am playing the victim, but I am not and I hate what is going on right now so much. Maybe this is the reason for this letter…to maybe allow people to look at me differently. It is like when you are a real woman and say what you feel and how you think things are supposed to be, that people just say you are a “bitch.”
I feel like some of the people in my life made more of some issues than was necessary. I also feel like they knew I was beginning to use my brain for a change and cut some ties, so they wanted to be in more control of my life than me. I think it is actually normal for a young girl to go out after a huge divorce. I think it was a bigger issue because I had not gone out in such a long time. I am 25 and I do still have a lot to learn, and I am going to make mistakes everyday, and I am sure every mistake I make will probably be on CNN or Good Morning America. I am only human people and I love you for still loving me.
I am sitting here at home and it is 6:25 and both of my sons are asleep. I am truly blessed to have them in my life. Everyday is so surreal. Life in general is so surreal and crazy.
I just hope this letter made some of you think a little bit more of me and where I am coming from. I just want the same things in life that you want…and that is to be happy. It is just so weird because everyone has their own perception of me and how they think I really am. It is so weird how stories are told. There is your side, my side, and the truth. Somebody has to figure it out. I guess we will never really understand or figure out life completely. That’s God’s job. I can’t wait to meet him…or her.
Love, Britney (Late-May, 2007)
Hey guys is really cool mother’s day is today, but I am really just thinking about getting my hands on Garbage’s new album tomorrow.
“It’s unbelievable what’s happened to Lana Del Rey! It’s shocking misogyny. I look at her and say, “What more do you want?” Here’s a beautiful young girl who tried her hand at being a working musician under her own name and it didn’t stick. She had the fortitude to go back to the drawing board…
This one is pretty great.
I go deep into thought and I think everything is going wrong, and nothing is the way it is suppose to be. And I know I’ll never change, I’ll remain unmotivated for the rest of my life, and never accomplish anything worthwhile. But then I snort a line of speed and everything makes sense. And I am invincible again.